roses for the dead.

2006-04-07T04:42:00.000-07:00

I can't remember anything that happened today. Don't ask me anything that happened today. Because I cannot remember anything that happened today.
I only remember, that Shinna asked me, "still him ah?" So yeah, my answer happened to be a straight forward yes. Hanen't I forgotten about him already? But why is it that I still miss him so much? I don't know what to do.

- Yes, I still love you. I know this is crazy and foolish. But, won't you ever ever come back?

2006-04-06T04:08:00.000-07:00

School today wasn't that of a disaster. In fact, I was rather happy because of something. And that Kristin, Fion and Roujun had to keep teasing me. Ok I shall stop saying to save the embarrassment. :)

Then during Maths lesson today, he walked into our classroom because she complained to him again that our class didn't bother to do her homework. Seriously, who would listen to HER lesson? I mean, it really wastes our time. So after school, we went to hougang mall to get our Click7 tees done. :D

Oh yes, Kevin, the special special pig, is so nice la okay. :)

2006-04-06T03:09:00.000-07:00

Don't be jealous. HAHA. :)

2006-04-06T03:02:00.000-07:00

My threesome. I swear I did not suggest this. HAHA.

2006-04-06T02:57:00.000-07:00

We were just finding humour. :)

2006-04-06T02:51:00.000-07:00

LOVE.

2006-04-06T02:43:00.000-07:00

Click7(:

2006-04-05T06:35:00.000-07:00

HOLEY SHIAT.
My class is horrendous. Maybe not all, but some of them are really getting on my nerves. I'm so sick and tired. Don't you ever there to use me alright. You pushed the class tee design to me since you said I was "creative". Fine, I accepted it. But when I designed a few, what shit did you give me? Said the people didn't like it, but they DID. They liked it, it was only you and your CLIQUE that didn't like it. Because you all are so picky, and some of them had to come up with such a oh-so-not-our-type kind of design, I'd rather not have the shirt at all. Besides, why couldn't you all complete the shirt last year? We'll be seperating classes at the end of this year already, so what's the use?

FED UP.
Today, when he put me in charge to arrange the class's steating arrangement, you all started to become so nice. One by one all of you start to come to my table to assign your OWN places. Like wtf? Are you the ones assigning the places for your classmates? NO. If that's the case, why would I be put in charge? Might as well he just ask all of you where you all want to sit. That's ridiculous. You all never spared a thought for me. Only treating me like shit crap dirt, using me here and there as and when you like. I know I am easy to bully, but don't you ever dare test my patience. So fuck it, stop stressing me alright. Especially YOU. I've had enough.

TEARS.
Because of this class arrangement, Fion and I had a big quarrel with the Kristin and Roujun. Same problem, stressing me and giving us their attitudes. What a din in the school canteen. Shouting at each other here and there. Making each other so hurt, even making me cry. But it's all over anyway.

AND, I'm happy only because training was damn funny.
AND, everything is fine with David now. Small boy robber ! :D
AND, I love Click7. :)

2006-04-03T06:05:00.000-07:00

EVERYTHING'S CHANGING.

We lost to RGS today. Before everything started, my mind was in a complete twirl. The pressure was so great, and guess what, my match HAD to be the deciding one. RG is tough competition, everyone knows that. But after my match, it was like you all gave me those cold cold eyes, like all the blame was put on me. Yeah like SO WHAT if I'm the second key player in the team, is it like you all have to blame someone for losing a match which was a sure-lose-kind-of-thing? If that's the case, where's the teamwork? You all never cared for your teammates, only when they cry. What's this. You all only WANT to taste victory. And when any of your teammates lose, you all just close an eye and just pretend that their invisible and you don't even bother to give them a pat on the back after a game they've lost. Forget this. It's over anyway. We're out of the Nationals. And that's a fact. Has this fact ever affected you all? No. That game against TKGS, we were just one step to that third point, but so what? There's NOTHING we can do about that now. One whole solid year of intensive training, 3 days a week, 4 hours per training. Ahhh, forget it. Everything's over.

EVERYBODY AND EVERYTHING.

After that incident on Saturday night, things started to change. What's with that bunch? Haven't they got anything better to do? And it even made me have a big big quarrel with used-to-be dearest gor. He wanted to severe "gan mei gan ge" ties with me because I was being unreasonable. How hurtful could that be. How much more do they want my life to be ruined. Why hadn't I listened to HIM and tell her about all these? Damn, at least she could advise me. But what's done cannot be undone. Stupid gullible shit I am. Fuck it alright.
I just pray, that everything will be over soon. And that my used-to-be dearest gor would talk to me like how he used to before again.

YOU: Thanks for waking me up with those messages last night. I didn't know I was that stupid and stubborn.
Adeline: Thanks for being there every single day. Especially this morning when I really needed you. :)

2006-04-02T06:15:00.000-07:00

I HATE HIM.
HIM. HIM. HIM. HIM. all of the HIMs.
LOSERS.

2006-04-01T07:56:00.000-08:00

I MISS MICHELLE.
I MISS YANLING.
I MISS SIQI.
I MISS JIAHUI.

2006-04-01T07:17:00.000-08:00

Nothing interesting happened today. Just dance dance dance and more dance. Whole day just dance. Not tiring though. It was rather fun. Rehearsal wasn't that bad.

And I'm starting to gain weight. Somebody stop me from eating before I stop dancing! ):

2006-03-31T02:00:00.000-08:00

HAHA, Maths test 4 was totally crazy.
Rou Jun - 1/35
Fion - 3/35
Kristin - 6/35
Beverly - 7/35

I'm the highest this time round? :D

2006-03-31T01:10:00.000-08:00

SEVEN CELEBRITY CRUSHES:
1. The Used.
2. James Blunt.
3. Jun Jie!
4. Li Hong!
5. Fort Minor.
6. BSB.
7. RONAN KEATING.
- i don't understand why girls put female celebs as their crushes. i think it's stupid.

SEVEN QUALITIES I WANT IN A POTENTIAL BOYFRIEND:
1. i
2. just
3. want
4. him
5. back
6. with
7. me
- because i don't need anybody else.

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1. Cockroaches.
2. ROGER! :p
3. Haunted houses.
4. Fever!
5. Number 11? :(
6. Heights.
7. Smelly ah peks.
- RAH!

SEVEN RANDOM SONGS AT THE MOMENT:
1. Lunacy fringe.
2. All that I've got.
3. In your eyes.
4. Taste Of Ink.
5. Noise and Kisses.
6. BAN DAO TIE HE. :D
7. L.O.V.E
- oh they're my blood.

SEVEN THINGS I LIKE MOST:
1. DANCE.
2. Music!
3. DANCE.
4. Photography!
5. DANCE.
6. Shopping!
7. DANCE.
- they can't live without me. :D

SEVEN THINGS I PLAN TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. To go out with Michelle again.
2. To go shopping with Charlyn and Michelle again.
3. To score an A* for Maths. -HAHA.
4. To turn back time. :(
5. To be with him again. :'(
6. To tell my dad I love him.
7. To tell him I still love him.
- please.

SEVEN THINGS I SAY MOST:
1. Omg I hate you - to David.
2. Haha.
3. You pig. - to Roger.
4. WAD DA HECK.
5. I love Michelle. :)
6. Kns!
7. Hur! :D
- i know i'm retarded. haha!

SEVEN PEOPLE THAT I WANT THEM TO DO THIS:
1. Charlyn
2. Dorothy
3. Kristin
4. Jasmine
5. Shinna
6. Malvina
7. Kitty
- because they have blogs. :)

2006-03-30T23:23:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BOEN.

Wednesday it was Roujun's birthday. But we couldn't spend time with her on that day because we had tournament. So yeah, we went to play pool yesterday. Me, Fion and Roujun went to CSC to play, as usual. Then later in the afternoon only then Kristin came to find us with Billy and Dexter. So after that we we walked to Parkway to have lunch. Then it started to pour heavily. No choice, we just walked around in the center.

Later in evening, I went back to CSC to find Charlyn. We had dinner there and we easily spent $40 for the two of us. Oh but it was hilarious. Haha. :)

Then in the night, we walked back to Parkway. I had to go for dance. Mock examination? Something like that. Oh and I can't wait for New Zealand trip with them la! Hurry hurry June faster come!

UPCOMING:
New Zealand trip with my ballet mates. :DD
Dance exam. 17 April. :(
Big Walk again with ballet mates! End of May. :)
DANCE CONCERT. :D
Shopping with MICHELLE and CHARLYN. :DDDD

Oh I can't wait.

2006-03-28T05:38:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROUJUN!

Alright, today, I was supposed to complete a very very important task - to whack Roger's ass. So important, right? And guess what, I didn't even see him the whole day. I'm so going to complete my task tomorrow, by hook, or by crook. :)

Okay, what happened today in class was that my history teacher was so angry with the class that she just packed her stuff and stormed out of the classroom. Believe it or not, the class just went crazy and everybody just started to pack and go home. Poor teacher.
AND, I love you Kristin for everything you did today! :)

So in the late afternoon I went for dance. Exam was pushed forward for one week. So instead of the 24th, it's on the 17th. Ahh, and there's mock examination this thursday night. WAD DA HECK.

i'm starting to fall back again. The feeling never faded. I'm so back to square one again. It's always the same mistake. Why am I missing you so badly like I ever did before? The memories all start to play repeatedly again. Is it because, it's been so long since I talked to you? Or is it that I have never forgotten about you at all? But, I still miss you despite the many times you've hurt me, and the many times not contacting each other. Will you still allow yourself to turn back time? And come back again? I really want you back by my side again.

2006-03-27T07:02:00.000-08:00

ONLY FOR MY DOROTHY XIAOJIE.

she's the light of my life.
she's the brightest star that shimmers in the night.
she's the sunshine of my darkest days.
she's the rose among the thorns.

and she will be always be the dearest to me. :)

LOVES!

2006-03-27T05:50:00.000-08:00

We lost today's match against TKGS. Okay, only me and Thitirat won our matches. And the other 3 games were a total flop. I don't know what to do now. Pigs will fly if we win RGS on Friday. Sigh, so contradicting.

OH YES,
Fuck you CHILDREN understand.

And, Roger Tan is an idiot. :)

2006-03-27T04:38:00.000-08:00

So if I had given you my url, please do not link me. If you want to link, just link it as www.inelegance-.blogspot.com. I'm keeping this personal. So please respect me.